Posted by DaisyM on May 5, 2004, at 19:52:41
In reply to marathon therapy, posted by Aphrodite on May 5, 2004, at 12:25:13
I told my Therapist once that I wanted to take a week off work and just push through all this stuff, bring it ALL out and deal with it "once and for all!" That was last October. He got real serious and told me in no uncertain terms that I was NOT to attempt this, that there was a reason we did it in small pieces, together, and pushing too hard could result in a psychotic break. He said we have to respect just how much I can take at anyone time and that forcing wouldn't help it anyway.
So many times since then I have wanted to try it anyway. But the truth is, I cycle up and down and I can't control it much. New memories surface and we touch places that I didn't/don't expect to be painful and they are. So then we have to process that. It helped me to know that lots of people have taken lots of time to get through their memories and feelings. Antigua really helped me when she shared how long it took her to reach some of her memories and talk about them. It also helped me to learn that it was "normal" to feel like you were coming undone, that all your coping skills didn't work anymore and that you were in complete crisis. Especially if it was the first time you ever talked about long ago secrets.
So I guess it is OK to want all day/night therapy. Just don't force yourself to do what you aren't ready for.
I did post about today's session below. Thanks for asking. I don't want you guys to get sick of hearing about all this. :)
Daisy
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