Posted by 1980Monroe on April 14, 2004, at 17:00:02
I have had this problem soo long, thank god there's dr-bob message boards because my therpist doesnt help at all.
When im in a normal social situation, or any kind of socialization i don't say anything. I don't know why, but the only thing that i've realized is i can't relate to people well, if i do speak, i always back away. When there's a normal conversation taking place, i just sit there and listen, i rarely make any input. I totally went into an EXtreme depression because i realized how far withdrawn i am from society. Going to school is not plesant, becasue basically i have no one to meet there and be with.
I'm a junior in high school, when i'm at school i put on a confident looking front, which is basically a defense mechanism, from being intimidated. I look like a normal teenager, wear all the brands, but i'm soo withdrawn!
When i was a kid i was annoying! i just thought it was funny to annoy, obvious i didnt get tolerable social skills. Then after that phase went, i don't know how to normally socialize. I was isolated actually when i was a kid, because we lived in bad neiborhood. Then we moved to alot better enviorment, but i realized i didnt have friends.
Then recently i was desperate find something to fix me, i started using street drugs, cocaine and methamphetamine. Mainly because they seemed to make me more motivated and exited to say something, and it somewhat worked, but still i had no desire to hang out with people because i just cant relate to them, the only reason i did speak was because i was soo filled with euphoria.
I don't know if this is a confidence problem, or im just maladjusted to society, but i really would like advice! maybe if hypnotherpy would work?
poster:1980Monroe
thread:336405
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