Posted by DaisyM on April 2, 2004, at 16:21:26
In reply to Re: Redirect: I'm F.I.N.E. » DaisyM, posted by All Done on April 2, 2004, at 12:04:22
Ok, so I'll admit to being really sensitive right now.
I saw my therapist everyday but today. Today we just had a phone check in. He is making me face my fears about being a burden and about overwhelming him.
We've had some hard conversations about the flash-backs and about what I want but can't have. I told him Wed that I hated therapy. He didn't take it personal, he just asks me to keep coming. Yesterday was frustrating for me, though I can't really say why. I felt pushed through-out the session to give up one of my most basic self-organizing principles - not to burden other people with my stuff. (Babble not with-standing). He called me on it all through the session and it was hard to keep seeing it. How do you get comfortable allowing other people to know you are unhappy when you can't tell them what you want them to do for you? That feels like "just" whining to me. Identifying problems that don't have solutions.
*sigh* I use to think people went into therapy so that they could find someone to tell them how to fix their lives or problems. My Therapist refuses to tell me the answers. Which makes me even more sure that there *aren't* any...
It is going to be a really long weekend. I need to bake...
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