Posted by KindGirl on March 4, 2004, at 22:11:52
In reply to Re: Does everyone here know each other? » KindGirl, posted by EmmyS on March 4, 2004, at 20:20:13
Elle you have a good memory...thank you Emmy for the encouragement!
Yes I see a Christian therapist and it is very bizarre how I found her. Found her website, read her writings and knew there was something special about this person...did not know she was a therapist in my state, commuting distance from me. On a whim, I called her office and she called me back and said she had an opening for me....which is another miracle because there is a waiting list I guess (another client told me this)...she has written a lot...books and Bible studies and whatnot and I think that I needed those "credentials" because the stuff she was going to tell me would rock my world.
I think completely different about everything now, God, love, acceptance, grace.....and if I didn't know she was so well known I would think she was a quack. Heck I still do think she is a quack sometimes!!!! My whole world has turned upside down.
I will try to post more in bits and pieces. I wish I could tell you my story clearly, but I am realizing that I have been frozen and numb most of my life and have shoved the "real" story way way down. I am in the beginning stages of seeing what really happened to me. My mom is a raging, mean, narcissistic alcoholic and probably one of the meanest people on the universe. My husband concurs. :( She has been mean and cruel to me since I was a baby. That is about all I can write right now...don't want to overload you or me tonight.
Thanks for making me feel welcome. I really enjoy meeting everyone too.
P.S. And I am the one who is held every week by my T. and I believe she is doing this because she asked me what I really needed deep inside, to listen to that baby inside who was left alone for hours, and I said that baby needs to be held. So I know that is why she got me the blanket and the little pillow. And no I don't think she is overstepping her boundaries. I think I might be feeling what it is like to be loved for the first time in my life. And you guessed it, it scares the CR*P out of me!!!
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