Posted by alexandra_k on February 14, 2004, at 1:20:30
AAAAAAARGH. I was so looking foward to getting back in to therapy as I have only had email contact with my T for the last few months. Last I heard she was willing to be a bit flexable etc etc - but she now seems to have reverted back to traditional CBT and it is driving me NUTS.
Termination is imminent...
I do understand how it is supposed to go. I have maladaptive thoughts (by definition) because my behaviour / emotion is maladaptive. I don't want to come up with treatment goals as I know the line that will be taken on them. I don't want to do this anymore. I have had enough. I have played the game and endorsed the 'appropriate' negative core beliefs (there are lists of the ones borderlines are supposed to endorse). I challenge them...
And the T says I have progressed and is happy.
And I feel like I am making up crap to keep her happy - and it is not very healing or sense creating for me. Then she asks if I found the session useful and I say 'no not really' and then she is mad all of a sudden. I will try to write to her but I am so weary.
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