Posted by Dinah on February 12, 2004, at 16:52:49
In reply to How are you feeling? » Dinah, posted by judy1 on February 12, 2004, at 15:40:16
I do see all the love, and it touches me very deeply. I don't even know what to say other than thank you all.
I'm obviously having some problems right now. I'm going to reinstate the Depakote and hope that that stabilizes things. A lot. I had only quit it because i thought it was interfering with my work. But as I've done about four hours this entire week, and not a whole lot more last week (withdrawals last week - some nice temporal lobe stuff, insanity this week), I have to consider that I can't possibly do a whole lot worse on it than I have off. And maybe some Risperdal for a couple more days. I'll sort it out. I think I forget sometimes that I'm on these meds for a reason.
I'll do my best not to apologize again for my meltdown. :)
I didn't cut, I called my therapist who wasn't a whole lot of help except that it reminded me that he'd be mad at me if I did, and I need him too much to let him be mad at me. Although if we have too many more daily sessions, I think he'll be angry with me just from a bit too much proximity.
I haven't felt well enough for long enough to properly respond to the wonderful emails you terrific guys have sent me, but I will. And I'll try to catch up here over the next few days. And post whenever I can feel reasonably sure I'm not being an idiot. :)
Thanks especially to those who said I made you feel safe and comfortable posting. I remember those (Judy included) who did that for me when I first arrived, and I'm always delighted to pay that forward.
Now I've been up a whole three or four hours, what with seeing my therapist and all. Bed beckons. And tuna casserole. Which is a very inconvenient favorite comfort food.
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