Posted by Pandabear on January 29, 2004, at 17:53:21
I need some advice...OK, my therapist seems to think that the medicine im on, Lamictal is not helping my obsessive tendencies...and lately im obsessing over a lot..mainly I find myself obsessing about NOT talking to my therapist. I live literally right across the street from her office and you might say that that is great..but it is both good and bad...because for someone that is so dependent and obsessive...I cannot go and talk to her anytime I want...so I have to be careful about that. Im coming home depressed everyday because I know that she is there and if I wanted I could go and try and speak to her but I wont do that because it is wrong. I have gotten to where I dont call her anymore when im feeling like I need to talk to her because I dont want her to be upset with me. Like today, I was so confused and my thoughts were racing and I was blaming myself for everything wrong in my life, and I wanted to call her but I thought she would think i was being obsessive..I just had a session with her yesterday...so for me to call her today would be alittle obsessed..right? I dont know.So, I made it through the day without talking to her but I was really anxious. Now that im home, if i slow down my thoughts race and I start obsessing again about how i cannot talk to her and i have no one to talk to and I just dont know what to do or how to speak to her about this..OR IS IT JUST ME BEING STUPID? It is so hard for me to stop...but i dont know if this means my medicine isnt working or what...Lamictal is a mood disorder drug..not for OCD...and i was told that if my obsessions didnt stop they would change me from Lamictal..I thought about dropping all of my appts but I feel that this is a time that I need really need to be seeing her..you know? I dont know any advice on how to handle this annoying situation would be wonderful ...I hate the way im feeling...thanks.
PB
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