Posted by giddy on January 23, 2004, at 21:52:50
In reply to I am sad you are not in a good place » giddy, posted by 64Bowtie on January 23, 2004, at 12:01:05
Hi guys, thanks for the responses I really appreciate it!
>hate is an emotion
I knew I was gonna get that one lol =)
Yes, it is. And it's not like I am completely devoid of emotion either. Sometimes I can be happy or laugh or get mad, but it is very brief and only like 15% intensity of what it used to be. It's hard to explain. I tried telling somebody once and he was like 'don't be silly! You just laughed see, you have emotions!'. Yeah, I can laugh and look normal on the outside, but inside is very numb.
> I hope you find inspiration here. Sounds like you are ready for a change. I hope it is vivid and meets your visions and dreams.
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> RodThankyou for the kind words Rod.
>Hi Giddy,
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If you're not already seeing a therapist, you might consider it. For me, even though Paxil is working, it's therapy that I credit for being able to feel emotions- especially positive ones.
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I hate being numb, so flat that depression is a welcome change. Talking to someone who understands emotions and could help find the reasons behind numbness and negativity might be good for you, too.
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There may be someone to talk to at your school, many colleges offer free counseling for students
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Hope I helped.
>Hi Poet. No, I have not yet been to a therapist. I saw a councelor a few times, but stopped (probably should have stayed). But, I don't think he understood. He contributed it to me being bored and my Dad believed him too, so he is always on my case now (grr) lol. I am glad to hear therapy helped you get back in touch with your emotions. It helps too knowing others like me have been through the same thing and have been able to get past it.
>I have to agree with Poet. I am alot like you, except that I have had some major stressors to link to my emotional numbness. But, I wonder, alot of people tend to downplay their own emotional turmoils. Could that be the case with you? I mean to sya that many people tend to say, "Oh, well it could have been worse." I know that when I relate to things that happened in my past I think, "Well, it wasn't really that bad, I mean I'm still here." Do you understand what I'm saying? And when I look at the actually writing that I do and listen to my sister retell the stories of things that happened in my past, I realize that I lived through some pretty bad things. Could that be the case for you as well? Just a thought.... Anywhoooo...Seeing a therapist is a good place to find some answers.
>Hi Karen. I understand what you mean and you are probably right. I have been through a lot of things over the years, but I have never been abused (physically). Also, even my memories are flat so it is hard to remember what was really bad and what was good other then how I remember reacting to it at the time. Has that ever been the case with you? Did your memories ever seem flat to you. I probably do downplay what I went through. To others it may seem pretty bad, but to me it was just normal day life.
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