Posted by Karen_kay on January 18, 2004, at 21:45:36
In reply to suicide ideation, posted by Medusa on January 18, 2004, at 5:57:19
You aren't the only one who's gone through this. I've been there many times. I know I have a support system in place, as well as a therapist to call and a crisis line if need be, but for some reason when I'm feeling that way I just don't want to bother them. Not that I would be bothering them, I jsut sometimes feel that way.
So, I post here. It hasn't happened often since I've began posting here (coincidence? I think not :) Also, I try to remember all the other times I've felt this way and that I've made it through. I keep journals, so that helps reinforce the fact that things may go up and down but they do get better. A lot of times I simply have to tell myself, "Take a sleeping pill and make it through another day." Or if I have to go to class, then I force myself to go. It's hard but I just do it. And sometimes seeing a smiling face on campus or a nice neighbor helps bring my mood up just a little bit to get me through the day. Just a little push to get me through, that's what I'm looking for at the time.
But, I know I constantly ask myself if I'm doing things right. What's the point, ect. I just try to find the little things to help give me a boost. My dog wagging his tail when I get home. My weekly therapy appointment, even if it sometimes sucks. Some good music. Chocolate and ice cream. Thank you cards. Just take it one day at a time... That's what I do. And hope the voice stops screaming in my ear.
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