Posted by zenhussy on December 16, 2003, at 23:28:31
In reply to Re: Qutting group » zenhussy, posted by Dinah on December 16, 2003, at 21:55:50
> You must feel strongly that this is the right thing for you to do at this time, so congratulations for having the courage to speak up and do what's healthiest for you.
Dinah,
Yeah I do feel strongly. I'm not, however, so pigheaded that I won't listen to reasons for staying. I'm willing to see other perspectives that I'm not able to see at this moment before I opt out for good.
Thanks for the congrats on the courage. I think it was just from being in a pissy mood going into group. Spoke with ex today. Ugh ugh ugh. Thought that chapter was far behind me.
> Does your therapist also run the group? Will she be upset by your decision?
Yep. One and the same. She was shocked. That's twice now this year that I've totally stunned her. I know I'm not that loopy and my life story and traumas aren't that unusual so the fact I've floored the therapist twice has me wondering just how much am I sharing? Am I aware of what I'm sharing? Perhaps the acknowledgement of the extent of the dissociation I've utilized over the years makes me less aware of what pieces I'm sharing when. I dunno. I ramble. Tonight seemed rather sudden to me too. Hmmmmm....Upset? Yeah she seemed upset and did not think it was a good idea. Totally respects my decision but wants to have a good talkin' to with me tomorrow in our individual session. I just typed out some negative comment about how I felt regarding tomorrow's session but erased it. I don't need to take this there. I have no idea how it will go and to predict doom is energy I would rather put toward goodness and healing.....my Californian aura is showing I think ; ) I'm still in a foul mood but I'm choosing not to bring all of that here to the board.
> I suspect that very few of us really know the impact we have on others, apart from family perhaps.
Yeppers there. That is what I need to work on next I guess. Some more 'stuff' to ponder and examine.
I'm sending my love and prayers for both yer ill doggies tonight. Hope things work out best for each of them. They have good lives with you. Dem doggies be blessed.
Thanks for your words.
ramblin ovah an' out
zh
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