Posted by fallsfall on November 30, 2003, at 10:46:05
In reply to Re: New Question from a Therapist » noa, posted by DaisyM on November 29, 2003, at 23:51:43
Ah, Daisy,
Self-sufficient control freak. You have described me to a 'T'. But I am so dependent that my therapist thought that my previous therapist had me diagnosed with Dependent Personality Disorder (I don't think I am). I live for my therapist's approval.
And this is why I am a control freak. I need approval so much that I can't take any chances of doing anything wrong and losing that approval. So I am hypervigilant about everything. I trust only myself with the imperative task of keeping myself "perfect" - what if someone else was in charge, but they did something wrong and I could have done it right? I can't take that chance. I have to oversee everything myself and do it MY WAY.
All of this it so that I can feel sure that I won't do anything wrong. Because if I did something wrong, the person I need so much would leave me and I couldn't depend on them.
I don't depend on many people (mostly just one at a time, dad, then a boss, then therapists). The rest of the world sees a rock.
Could it be this way with you?
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