Posted by slinky on November 26, 2003, at 21:54:56
Derealisation? Not actually living in body--dreamlike.
I don't know how to explain.
I get panic attacks anxiety when I land in my body and I am real.
It's as if my body is alien..my hands can freak me.
I seem to cope by living in a imaginative trance like state-not always pleasant
I want escapism all the time...but lately life is too real.
I've been harming myself to cope with internal/emotional pain..it's a way of focus my mind away from the pain inside I don't know where this fear or dread comes from--i only slightly pinch my skin--cause I don't want my partner to see it.I freak myself when my mind lands back from the dreamy arty state.
As a child I escaped into imagination where it was safe..it seems I can't grow out of this way of coping.
Please don't mention therapy(it's not that i dissmiss it)--It is extremely difficult (even if you got money) to get it in UK.
I'm lost.
poster:slinky
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