Posted by Camille Dumont on October 5, 2003, at 10:30:47
In reply to Re: self-harm ... well sort of, posted by underthecs on October 5, 2003, at 7:54:05
Well, as Hannah said, it might be more of a compulsion thing. Now that I think of it, I don't do it to feel the pain, to hurt or to punish myself.
Its like a stress-relief thing ... like when you bite your nails ... except this goes a bit too far. When I do it, its almost a trance-like feeling. Its absorbing, fascinating ... in a very twisted way. So much so that even the pain I have to endure afterwards doesn't seem enough to deter me from doing it. I've tried wearing gloves, closed shoes, taped socks ... nothing seems to work.
I've never told anobody except here and my s.o. who found out about it. He's the one pressuring me to do it ... to tell my therapist but its so humiliating.
I also doubt that there is something that she could do about it ... and I certainly don't want to have to take more pills because of it.
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