Posted by Eggy on September 28, 2003, at 20:20:39
In reply to Re: fallsfall, posted by fallsfall on September 19, 2003, at 9:54:49
I hate dragging this thread on and on. I want my old therapist back. I am dying...melting...exploding...being swallowed up by depressive gook!!! He says he will take me. My new therapist is so much better but I have been so depressed lately. Suicidal. I have lost 9 lbs. I lay on the couch, dead to the world. But today he called from his house to see how I am. I just chipped right up. I don't know what it is. My husband says maybe I need his type of therapy. My mom says we are to buddy buddy. All we really do is fight. But if I don't go back to him I know I will kill myself. That is all I can think of. Not because I don't have him. But because I don't feel like I am living anymore. Because I feel like I have nothing. But I just really like my new therapist. I know I can get well faster with her. If I don't die first. This is what will probably happen if I stay like I am now. But if I go back to Michael then I may be in therapy forever but I will be alive.
Please help me and be totally honest. I have to call Michael back tomorrow. I see laberta on Wednesday. I need to make a decision. I really don't know what to do. I know what I want but is what I want what I need?
poster:Eggy
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