Posted by Miller on February 10, 2003, at 21:22:30
In reply to Re: Miller, you've inspired me. » Miller, posted by Dinah on February 9, 2003, at 18:30:51
Dinah,
I was really concerned with how to start writing. But what I found is that even if I don't have a "creative" idea, there are always the old stand-by issues. Always, my parents are a great place for me to start. So, if I am looking at a blank page and don't already have a game plan, I begin with some thoughts about a parent. Twelve pages later, I learn something. :) I have learned that the theory of "real love" which is the ability to give something I never had, has made me able to give compassion to mother. It has allowed me to give love (without an expectation of receiving) to my dad. I am also working on trying to give forgiveness and understanding to people who never gave me the same.
One huge issue I deal with is irrelevance. So many people, for so long, have made me feel as if I don't matter. I have high hopes that by journaling, I will be able to see that I DO matter. I want to believe it. Oh, if only it were that easy.
So don't dwell on creativity or specific subjects, just get feelings out. It feels good to be able to get them out. I never would have thought I would say that. But, for once in my life I am being honest. And I am being honest to myself, which is really close to a miracle.
I hope you are able to have the relief I have found. Let's hope it will be enough.
Good luck, my friend.
-Miller
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