Posted by alexandra_k on January 25, 2019, at 22:40:15
In reply to Re: revision, posted by alexandra_k on January 25, 2019, at 22:16:05
and i guess that's just the story they tell themselves because it helps the world see a little more just and it's easier to live in a world where things appear to be just.
it's a... shifting... that is required for them to think that i am competent, after all.
and perhaps a shift for me.
i suppose many of the kids will have been trained in 'get on in there' and so on. i will have to try and find the right balance. try and find grad entry people who got in under competitive entry. try and find a group who are interested in studying for USMLE. try and figure out the timeline... by myself if I have to... it would be really rather better to not be totally alone in doing that...
i am procrastinating the final touches on the thesis...
it has been hard. a mixed year. times of... nothing. crying in bed procrastination. becuase that is required as part of my process. then times of intensely focused work over an extended time period. bursts and fits.
more recently there was a period of forced inactivity over the break... and then a period of... strategic inactivity. coming to a plan.
the university refused to grade the thesis in accordance with calendar regulations. they should have said it was accepted subject to revisions to be completed within 10 weeks. but they didn't do that. instead, they decided that since i submitted 'early' they would just say 'you are required to keep working on it for at least 6 months'. only... 30 weeks work is an academic year and i worked on it for 27 before submitting...
only... they didn't enrol me on time, either. and so they are trying to deny i did 8 weeks of work. but the calendar regulations are that they need to have enroled me within a month after i applied. they tried to deny my application date, too. they time stamp altered it so it was late!
incompetence after incompetence after incompetence...
i need it to be non-controverally 30 weeks of work on my behalf.
there were reccommendations for changes by the examiners...
my supervisor was like 'i think you should sit in the corner and have a cry about how extensive the changes are and how hard it will be and how you might fail!'
and i was like 'i don't think that will help'.
every time she finds 15 typos she seems to think she has found a months work for me (more like a few hours).
trying to think about what is 'reasonable' work to give them...
after the intentionally f*ck*d me over. that's the thing.
but once it is done i will never have to do anything for them ever again.
and they know it. and so are using their opportunity to make my life as hellish as possible.
i actually thought they might be nice to me. might hope i get to study med. train to be a specialist. come back to the region and work in the local hospital. may be able to help them, one day.
but they chose they would rather bet against me and do their damned-est to have me fail.
it's not personal. it's just their way.
because they would rather be the head of their hierarchy and live their nasty short and bruish lives. sigh.
to each their own.
if only.
anyway... they aren't extensive changes.
i just imagine my supervisor and the head of the research school, though... them being all stern and so on about it. it's them. i don't want to work for them. i don't want to give them my work. i don't want to have interaction with them, at all. awful people. being awful to me.
i guess they like that. to think that they don't get much work done - and neither does anybody else in their vicinity. nobody gives them good work.
only by stealth submission, that's for sure.
you can see the overly processed stifled turn of phrase that comes from... sufficiently kept graduate students. how they say next to nothing. emptied of meaning. until their supervisors are smug and self satisfied that they knocked any originality or anything delightful well out. any kind of youthful enthusiam or love of learnign or knowledge or....
awful people.
it only really needs... a few days. if that. a day. maybe two. given how much i can get done in a day. maybe only one.
the thing is i mostly don't want to change anything at all. that will only likely introduce typos.
it's about...
that awful thing of 'let me google that for you' to add references. that's what academia has been reduced to, these days. people handily have precisely whatever it is that you said in their title, these days, even. sigh.
only it won't be. becuase i've actually picked up the phrases from peoples talks, mostly. and mostly talks were derived from papers or from papers they read and so on.
they didn't make kripke reference. or quine. most people who have things to say don't reference.
anyway... i know what to do / what needs to be done.
i got a lot of research doen when i was an undergraduate. largely because there was no undergrauate research school committee head people supervisory people of that to stick their bloody oars in and slow things down to a f*ck*ng stop. i see that now.
hey, when you can't get any research done you know i'ts your calling in life to make sure nobody else does, either - right?
and when you can't get registration to practive medicine it's probably time to go teaching and / or admin.
sigh.
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