Posted by babblemama on October 22, 2004, at 1:18:52
In reply to What are racing thoughts? Depakote?, posted by D minor on August 20, 2004, at 19:34:21
> I posted this on the regular page, but I thought I'd put it here to, just in case.
> I just registered so I'm new, but I've been reading messages for a while. I was diagnosed with Major Depression last year. Now my new pdoc thinks that episode may have been a mixed episode and that I, therefore, may be Bipolar. He wants to put me on Depakote, which I am terrified of. Does it really make you loose your hair?
> Anyway, I'm not so sure I'm bipolar. What is the official definition of racing thoughts? I've had repetative thoughts and horrible thoughts that kept me up at night. But mainly I had this feeling like my brain was screaming or was on fire. Does that sound crazy? It was like there wasn't enough stimulation for my brain, like the world was moving to slow and I just wanted to bang my head on something.
> Please let me know what your bipolar experience has been if it's been anything like mine.
> Peace and love-
My thoughts race too fast for me to find them sometimes. It is like my thoughts are thinking of their own connectedness before I even think them. I have always been fascinated by puns, by the way words work...but beyond that, my thoughts feel like they are on some sort of high speed carosel, each is a colorful horse talking to another that it hasn't met yet. It feels kinda psychodelic. I am also epileptic, when my brain is like that it feels like it is plugged into some industrial sized outlet, like the kind that a big powerful tool needs, but everyone else has just a regular household outlet, like for a lamp. Then just as quickly it switches off. My neurologist put me on lamictal, mood stablizer/antiseizure med. Depakote was one I tried years ago, which is also indicated for both. Haven't heard about hair probs, it was so long ago, don't remember the side effects. You do not sound crazy. I don't think I do either, it's all a matter of chemistry. Better living through chemistry.