Posted by Dreamer10 on December 19, 2004, at 20:06:58
I have been a lurker here for a long time. I would read the posts and think, that will never happen to my marriage. All that changed last week.
My only child, a son, died June 25, 2002 from injuries he got in a motorcycle accident.
Me and my husband have talked, and he said I pushed him away, and I probably did, its common in a lot of marriages when a child dies.
I look back at my behavior the past few months and know the bi polar has kicked in hot and heavy. Made a appt with my shrink and therapist.
Me and hubby haven't said its over, he just needs time to get his head together. Well, I told him the other night that before he decided he wanted to come back that he better realize that I don't have as many issues as he thinks I have. I have bi polar and no amount of therapy or drugs is going to totally get rid of it.
I just hate that while in that bi polar state, that I couldn't see something was going wrong. This was the man that, putting it in a friends words "adored me". And its killing me that I was the one that pushed him away.
Peggy
Mom to AC
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