Posted by Dr. Bob on April 3, 2004, at 7:59:56
In reply to Re: Weight-loss after Remeron-for seanwrx Lynda, posted by snapper on April 2, 2004, at 23:02:30
> hey, sean, I know exactly whay you mean about someone just telling you in your eyes : man God has a plan for you ...it is sooooooo hard to believe most of the time- when I do go to Church and people ask me how I am doing, I usually look around or not directly in their eyes and so ..oh fine -I'm struggling but I think I'll make it--alll the while inside I really feel like telling them you know what (so, and so) I FEEL LIKE SH*T and I feellike dying, BUT thanks for asking!! I look at them and say man, I wish I had what you had (God), does he really make you that joyful and give you that much peace? It shows!! I have been "saved and a Christain since I was eight but Depression just steals your spiritualality and at times I just want to say to them Religion is a crock- but at the same time I think , hey there must be something to it. Not Just religion But a real relationship with my creator. A GOD who "has plans for me-hopes and dreams...) it just does'nt make sense when almost half my life has been lived through the eyes of unhappiness and heart wrenching dispair!! I am very thankful that I genuinely do have tons of people at my Church that are constantly praying for me and It makes me feel a little better!! I mean, man they are REALLY INTERESTED in my miserable pathetic existance!! I just wish my social anxiety did not get in the way so much that it permits me from taking people up on their offers to go to lunch or just to hang out and get myself out of myself - it is just sooo hard. anyhow -thanks seanwrx and Lynda for the encouragement- but after 45-50 diff meds and med combos- I just have to vascillate hourly and daily that: Okay, There Is A God who really does have something more in store for me than severe depression and anxiety ! Maybe he isn't going to heal me or make me well through modern day chemical means.... Maybe ! Maybe - Maybe there is a Miracle to be found!! I sure hope so :(...
> anyhow train of thought is going arwry...and sorry about religious rant-thanks to all for reading and listening!!
> peace to all of ya
> Clint
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