Posted by temmie on August 3, 2003, at 19:38:48
In reply to Opening to Light/Letting go of Addiction, etc., posted by Temmie on August 2, 2003, at 13:27:46
Excuse the double-post above. I must have hit enter twice .... Just wanted to say I am grateful for every bit of advice I've gotten on this site. Mercury, I'm sorry I wasn't fast-moving enough to suit your tastes, but I appreciate the referral to Al-Anon, and have been to three meetings in the last three days. It is helping. I have also made a friend of my new chanting string .... thank you, Jimi .... And last night, since I'm no longer taking Seqoquel for sleep, literally prayed all night. I prayed to be a better mom. I prayed to be a better student. I prayed to be a better teacher. I prayed for Paul's safety. I just ... prayed ... without stopping, and it was wonderful. Paul called first thing in the morning and sounded "normal," but I know that's only because he ran out of money, was ripped off, robbed, or whatever, and had to "do without" yesterday ... spending the whole day in bed. Today, his [foolish] brother cashed a check for him, so he'll be out using again tonight. I feel so much clearer, and so much more capable of "letting go." That's not to say that I'm all the way "there" yet, but I'm finding it easier to detach -- and to fulfill obligations that are far more important for my higher growth: commitments to my family; commitments to myself; commitments to my higher-education; to my students; to my career; and to my long-range goals. Thank you. I wish there was another site here ... related to addiction/substance abuse, and recovery -- but perhaps that's not necessary, being that so much has already been accomplished here.
Thank you thank you thank you.
Also want to put another plug in for "The Jesus I Never Knew". Good bedtime reading.
Sweet dreams to all. Keep reaching up. Keep asking for help. Keep moving forward.
XXX, Temmie
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