Posted by Mandy on June 19, 2002, at 15:04:47
I have always had a deep faith and was a practicing Catholic, but have been unable to pray or go to church for last several months. Not sure why except that because of my constant mental problems, I guess I feel deserted by God. Last month I tried to take my life by taking 5 different medications and was on a ventilator for 2 days and in mental health unit for 8 days. i guess I wasn't totally serious because I left a note for my husband and that is why I was found before I actually stopped breathing.
I see a psychiatrist now twice a week, my husband doles out my meds (prozac, neurontin and ambien) and I think I am a little better.
But today I tried to find the meds and think I would have taken them all if I could have found them. I just so desperately want to find my spiritual side and believe that I am a worthwhile person. I have glimpses of feeling good but it doesn't last. I need support and help. Thanks