Posted by janetlee on October 22, 2006, at 2:55:19
Hi All,
I know that my questions will likely be nothing new and perhaps I should've did a longer search of the archives (I did do some), but it is late and I am tired, physically, mentally, and emotionally. First, a little background on me. I had my first PA at the age of 17 after my first day of my first job. It awoke me from sleep...I didn't try to work again for years. When I did, that failed too. Finally, my panic problem increased to the point of where I almost became agoraphobic. I was diagnosed with major depression, generalized anxiety disorder, and panic disorder in late 1992. I was tried on wellbutrin and it sucked in my case. Then I was put on Zoloft (200mg) and Xanax (up to 6 mg a day for a long time). With the help of these meds, I started to come out of the depression and the anxiety finally started to lessen to the point where I seldom ever even thought about it. Of course, as the years passed by, I'd have relapses of anxiety, but they usually passed after a short time. Once, it came back real bad and the shrink put me on buspar along with the other meds. Overall, I did fine for a number of years until January of this year. The anxiety came back with a vengeance. My shrink tried adding wellbutrin to my meds, but it made me even worse. I was down to .25mg of xanax a day at the time this started, but he refused to up the dose, even for a short time. I lost 20 lbs and had IBS and no appetite. Finally, in desperation, I went back to the clinic and got to see a different shrink. She said to go ahead and take a little extra xanax for a short time. Even thru all that, I didn't take over 1.25mg a day. Usually not over 1mg, sometimes less. After i started feeling better, I got to where some days I went w/o xanax at all! I was really proud of myself! Then a few months later, the anxiety returned. Basically, most of this years has seen a lot of ups and downs, but the downs are more common. After researching online, I read that antidepressants can sometimes stop working. I talked to the clinic nurse practitioner about it and she thought that could be my problem. Anyhow, I am currently on 25mg of Paxil CR, Buspar, and Xanax as needed. I didn't take any today, although I wanted to. I just found out that the clinic has a new rule of NOT prescribing benzos in most cases and it will likely include me. I'm scared to death! I didn't take the xanax today cuz I figured I might as well get used to doing w/o it. I know this is a long post and am sorry. I've been taking fish oil supplements for over 2 months and B Complex. I started taking magnesium yesterday (Natural Calm as it is very absorbable). I only took a small dose as I know magnesium can cause diarrhea. And it did so with me! I know that I must be deficient but how can I couinteract the diarrhea? I only took 1/2 teaspoon of it tonight (eventually, I'm supposed to work up to 3 teaspoons). I also added borage oil to my supplements as of yesterday and bought a bottle of quality B-100. I felt that maybe my cheapo brand of B's wasn't doing it for me. I am so worried, stressed, and desperate for relief. It does seem that the Paxil may be starting to help some. I've only been on it since October 19, 2006. Please somebody, help me if you possibly can. I have suicide idealization, even though I'm not going to kill myself. But it does show just how bad I've been feeling for so long. Please help me.
janet
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