Posted by gabmeister on August 16, 2006, at 16:15:48
In reply to Re: I'm not afraid, I just don't wanna.... » over 55, posted by JLx on August 16, 2006, at 10:54:20
> > Good to hear from you again gabmeister and wonderful about the trip and new rug!! A great accomplishment.
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> > I am struggling with the "tearmonster" this week and had a bad experience over the weekend with my newly "cleansed colon". I'd just finished my 30 day colon cleanse with 7 lb weight loss and feeling a bit better in the am (not having to hire a crane to lift me out of bed)!! Anyway I am not a drinker in any fashion, but at dinner, since I'd virtually given up caffeine, I decided to have a beer. Immediately as it hit my "gut" I had sharp pains and grumblings. Thinking I needed food on top, I smothered it with a great BBQ dinner. Off to the movie we went and me still in excrutiating pain wishing I could "give birth" to this thing in my stomach. Well finally at 1:30am, 3:00am 5:30am....well you get the idea. I got rid of everything in my stomach and beyond in a most unfflattering way. I took 3 showers during the night, as it was not a pretty sight. I have never had stomach problems, but think maybe I oever-cleansed my system or maybe over-stressed it with beer and BBQ???I've done cleanses over the years. I have also found that after cleansing, I become super sensitive to heavy meals. I had a naturopathic "cleansing mentor" who further explained you can get strange side effects (pain, flue like symptoms, headaches, vomitting, the poopies, etc. due to the toxins being released/expelled by your body. It takes time to work through all this and yup, physically it can be hell.
>> I missed work on Monday due to back and stomach being so sore from wretching. Since this has all happened I am at the verge of tears constantly, having bad thoughts etc. I am trying very hard to be "normal" and want to stay off the AD's now that it has been 7 weeks off. I have wandering residual affects like the "brain swooshes" and randon limb pains that I maybe was too drugged to notice before. I had brain zaps while taking the AD's, but this was the side to side brain swoosh I have heard others decribe.
I think you're right about having been too drugged. The aches and pains sound fairly common. Again, also possibly a side effect of the cleanse.
> > So, gabmeister what are the "baby hallucenations you refer too, if it is not too personal to ask??? I have had optical illusions in the past, like 12 years ago, and recently within the last two weeks having some again. Guite disturbing as I am off the AD's. I want to stay free; but I am struggling here with the crying and not feeling well at all. Any ideas or suggestions?
Well hon, all I can say is you've come this far, be strong as you can and plod on. Now that I'm almost down to zero on the AD's I find I'm becoming a bit teary and am, quite frankly, a bit afraid of how bad that will get once I'm completely off. And the brain swooshes? Gawd it's the most horrible feeling. Last time I went off the AD's several years ago, these were the lasy symptoms that I really, really had a hard time getting rid of. It took me 3 months at less that 10mg every two to three days before I could shake this particular symptom. I finally stopped even that when I was on a week holiday. I was determined and decided that doing this while I was at home would be my best change. (I hate getting dizzy, crying in front of co-workers. At least by being home I figured if getting off the last bit of AD's was gonna freak me out, I wanted to do it in the privacy of my own home!
Oh yeah. The baby hallucenations? The bad thoughts? I am ashamed to admit them and very, very shocked that it happened. Anyone who knows me knows how heavily I'm involved in animal rights, animal rescue, groups (PETA, WSPA, Humane Societies, etc). About 6 weeks ago I started "visualizing" myself kicking my two gorgeous, loving boxers and smacking my cats around. But then again, I know I would never act on these thoughts. Several years ago doc tried my on Prozac and I became very aggressive and actually visualized myself stabbing my hubby to death. Scared the hell outta me, and got off the Proz real fast.
These visualizations and thoughts are (I thank god) starting to ease greatly. Hasn't happened in about 2 weeks. But when it was happening, wow.
My thoughts are with you. Prayer for you tonite. Be strong (I know, easier said than done) I have faith that even though it may take some time we shall all beat this hell.
Have faith in yourself and don't beat yourself up.
I've been down this road before. I beat the drugs before they beat me. If I can do you can. I'm not always the strongest person.
I've started yoga classes again and find they're helping me. The poses, the relaxation and meditation are helping with daily stress and giving me someting that almost resembles "energy" which lord knows, I haven't felt in years.
Take care sweetie. (And this is why they call me "gabmeister".) Keep posting.
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> Well, I'm not gabmeister, but if you don't mind...I suggest EFT for the crying and whatever emotions you're feeling and maybe probiotics for your digestive system.
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> JL
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