Posted by AAA88 on August 14, 2006, at 14:13:47
In reply to Re: My experience of self-medicating with pot » AAA88, posted by linkadge on August 7, 2006, at 18:02:17
i dont think it was anything mixed in with the weed. i would buy the bud from a couple different sources and chop it up myself. one of the sources was a friend (not sure who supplied to him) and another source was a known guy that i felt comfortable buying from. i had two different batches at the time when it happened and one batch would give me a high which left me feeling more paranoid while the other batch left me feeling more relaxed. the last one i smoked was the bud that left me feeling relaxed (there might have been some crystals from the other batch mixed in the tray) and i still had my panic attack. after 5 weeks now, my mind is basically back to what im used to.
i too think that if marijuana was looked at differently and accepted out in the open, as well as if my family wouldnt care about it among other things, then i wouldnt have felt as paranoid either. but getting caught by them wasnt my only anxiety while high, it was basically anything that i normally feel anxious about, like certain oncoming social situations. id like to think that if i can get rid of any anxiety that i would ever experience, then i could smoke without feeling any paranoia. but at the same time, i dont know if its something permanent in my brain that will always leave me prone to this. my panick attacks while high wouldnt happen from thinking about something in particular, but rather just a senseless phobia like my heart stopped and i couldnt breathe (although i could) and then it would go from there.
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