Posted by robot on July 9, 2006, at 23:42:07
I just wanted to share this with everyone. Things have bene changing alot and it seemed stupid to not share it with the folks on this board. It may seem esoteric but really I dont think it is.
I started taking tai chi last year because I was desperate to be more connected to my body. but it turned out to be more. after 7 months or so I started feeling my "chi" or whatever you want to call it. So that made me more committed to it. Because how could you not get interested when you feel this powerful substance in your body?
Last year I had begun spontaneously feeling a tension in my forehead (third eye). This happened after I worked on meditation for awhile without much success. Im not a great meditator. Im stressing this because I think its overemphasized--getting rid of thoughts, focus work. Maybe there are other things to do first if you find meditation hard like I did.
So this year, with the slow chi awakening, I started feeling the 3rd eye randomly again. SO i started to sit and think about it. It was very shy. That little knot of energy would go come and go at first.
INterested in energy work now, I got with a Healing Touch practitioner and did 6 or so hour sessions. With that, and the exercises she showed me, I started feeling the little chakras in my feet. weird. (WHen I find a way to post these exercises on this board I will. they are very easy.)
Ive also been riding my bike or walking 2 hours most days of the week. Before, I have tried cardio exercise but it either made me feel worse or little effect. Now, though, Im sure its potentiating the effects of the energy work.
Ive started being interested in things again, and enjoying music more. For years Ive struggled with anhedonia. Its not gone, but I can see its moving away.
Two weeks ago I was feeling horible and I noticed when I centered my attention on my third eye, my thinking became less anxious and more clear. This observation continued for a week as I decided to think about it throughout my days' activities.
A week later I was sitting down after having watched my third eye for awhile and I felt very relaxed. The energy I had been building on my forehead seemed to 'spill' over my forehead, over my head, and even over my body. NOw, unlike before, I can feel energy awareness all over my head, not just in that one spot.
And as I continue with my chakra exercises Im feeling it more thoughout my body.
My anxiety with speaking to people seems to have greatly diminished just in the past week. I have times when I feel quite a bit more like myself. Im playing music again. Its like all the work I had been doing the past year (especially the last 6 months) built up until it sort of "broke through" and has had some rapid effects.
Im not saying, if youre depressed or whatever then focus on your third eye. That might not be what you should do at all. But I think now that working on this stuff *without* dealing with your chi flow in your body is just not utilizing whats available. It seems that your chi can originate change in your brain instead of just trying to do it with chemicals or whatever.
poster:robot
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