Posted by Spector on June 14, 2005, at 0:58:03
Hi, have any of you tried neurofeedback for severe depression, particularly severe depression with very extreme anxiety? I would very much like to hear about your experiences.
I am in a very long severe depression with crippling anxiety. It has nearly incapacitated me. I have tried literally dozens of treatments both conventional and alternative and this is being suggested to me now.
Some of you may know the incredible anxiety that goes into trying to evaluate a new treatment option. You want help so desperately, but are so afraid of another protracted treatment attempt in which you cannot help but invest incredible emotion and hope, let alone money, only to have it end in devastating disappointment.
I should mention that I am a manic depressive who went 14 years in complete remission until an over zelous doctor in 2002 felt I had mild ADD symptoms and suggested Adderall. I had no idea it was an amphetamine or I would have run for my life. (And she supposedly did not know that it could trigger mania.) It took only one pill and I was in the beginning of a hypomanic state. That was followed by the unthinkably stubburn and terrifying depression that I am still in today despite trying one treatment aften another. My life has utterly stopped. When the depression hit I could no longer care for myself or even be alone much of the time and I had to leave my beautiful husband, my home, my studio and my life as a full time artist to return to my mom's house so that she could care for me. I am here still 2-1/2 years later. I am scared to death that I am never going to be able to return back to life. Terrified to the point of asking to be removed from this earth many many times a day. (But, I have never attempted nor seriously planned to attempt.)
So, you can see. I know I don't have to give most of you the gory details for you to know that it has been torture. Torture. I do not use that word lightly. Any advice about the neurofeedback will be greatly appreciated.