Posted by world citizen on February 18, 2005, at 23:13:11
In reply to Re: Selegiline, posted by Elroy on February 18, 2005, at 20:06:09
Elroy, in my haste to tell you about DHEA I neglected to tell you how sorry I am that things have been so hard for you. I must say, you seem to be handling it with courage! I don't know where I read it but it goes something like this: courage means feeling the fear and doing the righteous thing anyway.
Incidently, I'm looking forward (not!) to the 5th volume of MY deposition. It's been over a year since they first started them 01/15/04. I can only think that they've thought that I'd just give up. Though the truth probably lies more in the realm of the attornies just getting a lot of milage ($) out of the case. Whatever. I'm not afraid of it anymore. I realized my job is just to tell the truth and to be as sincere as possible. The outcome I will accept as the Will of God. Now, lest you get the wrong impression of me, I'll tell you that sometimes God ordains that "things contrary to (our) wishes should occur". I've grown SOOOOOOO much by staring down my own fears as a result of this! Though it has been a rough ride!!!!!!!!!!
World Citizen
> How very interesting. My stressful period started about mid 90s with increased (ethical) problems at workplace and a whistleblower situation (yours truly) by late 90s. Ended up forced to take a disability retirment under extreme pressure. Filed a civil suit a couple years later but ended up having the court dismiss it last year - about two months before my second round of severe anxiety and depression really exploded (my first round started about a year after I filed the lawsuit and right in the middle of all the depositions, etc.). The actual "trigger" of the current event was a, well, family loss, but I've always felt that there was some delayed reaction to the civil case loss also.
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> Oh well. I know that for a few months there that everything was fine, what, about 4 months? There's where I want to get back to!
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> > Hey Elroy. I forgot to share with you a very important aspect of my mental health program. This is a book by Eckhart Tolle called "The Power of Now". I've just been through the most difficutlt year in my entire life and the information I utilized from this book, in addition to vitamin G, has not only preserved my sanity but has brought me to a level of awareness and emotional/spiritual maturity that I never imagined possible.
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> > And another thing... If my posts were sounding progressively morbid that's because I scared myself thinking about my eventual weaning from the benzo. I've got a court thing going on (civil) and have NO intention of even cutting down until THAT is over, which should be in another month or two. Using the information in the book coupled with the power of faith I just talked myself out of a mounting anxiety attack!!!
> > Elroy, it sure is good to know that there is somebody else out there that's trying to deal with this crap!
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