Posted by Chuckie on April 11, 2004, at 12:34:04
In reply to Re: sorry if not a good time to bother you but.... » Chuckie, posted by spoc on April 10, 2004, at 22:18:42
Hi Spoc,
I did some asking around, but nobody wants to tell me anything. They just ask me if i want to go into detox, or if i want to go into residential? treatment, and here's the forms to fill out that'll be $110 and the clinician will do an intake the Thursday after next.
They act like i do this all the time.
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Tramadol, yes, i got a prescription for that. I couldn't take it b/c it made me feel yucky, sorta like a trycyclic(sp?) antidepressant. I also felt spacy and, for lack of a better word, 'stupid.' My appetite was impaired. And so, between the overall yuckiness and the poor appetite, my workouts suffered, and i coudn't have that b/c pumping iron was the very most important thing in my life.
I gave it i think two weeks to stop annoying me and it didn't stop, so i did.
I'm only telling you this because you asked. Please don't get my side effects. ;) I'm very sensitive to chemicals and so your mileage is very likely to vary.
>>On another note, did you mean that you are mainly stopping because what you take is too hard to keep obtaining?<<
I'm stopping because of several reasons. The primary reason is it scared me when i got severe w/d symptoms simply because i didn't take enough one night. It scared me that i had developed so much tolerance, so fast. And the quantities required to prevent w/d and provide relief, are such that i'm ingesting too much and it makes me feel yucky. Feeling bad is of course, the opposite of my intent. My intent was to feel normal. In a nutshell, i made a really bad mistake.
BTW for anyone who is reading along, my mistake was to think i could make tea out of opium poppies to relieve my depression, and keep my usage under control. Please don't try this. I understand everyone's different, but i thought i was different enough to get away with this and i wasn't. My reference and rationale was how well i handled Vicodin when i had access to it. Opium is not the same thing.
- Chuckie
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