Posted by lil' jimi on October 8, 2003, at 0:23:47
In reply to re: wolves in sheep's clothing dressed by shepherd » lil' jimi, posted by Dinah on October 7, 2003, at 22:47:56
hi Dinah,
> aaaahhhh, Jim. I am so sorry. Sigh. I know that I was among the least affected.... But I hurt for you, and for the others.
>
> Maybe that's a good step, to move from angry to sad. It's got to hurt to carry around the anger. Or maybe it hurts worse to admit to the sad underneath.
>
> I hate to give Dr. Bob more credit than he deserves, but maybe he was waiting for our anger to give way to sadness before he responded.
>
> If so, I think we should whip our anger back up into a frenzy and blister him with a few carefully chosen words. But that's just me. I hate being "handled".... >... ... there is that certain kind of desolation from knowing it does not matter what i feel ... ... no matter how important it seems to me .. ... .. angry or sad ... ... except that i lose the ability to make sentences or conjugate verbs when i'm mad ... ... so sad's really better ... ... because at least i sound somewhat less (i Hate this word!) stupid ... (and i hate the word 'hate'!) ... and i get no thrill from venting when i'm hacked ... i can't have the presence to savor it ... ... and there's no sport in it ... it's like enjoying a day when it's all bright and sunny ... where's the challenge in that ? ... ... i find that when bringing grief, misery works better than rage ... ... and if we learn anything from other(s) it's that rage burns up too much compassion ...
... besides no one owes me no explanations about nothing ...
dean martin once said, "It's Sinatra's world. The rest of us are just living in it."
this is dr. b's world ... he's letting us live in it.
no one said it had to be easy.i wouldn't really mind if i was being handled that much ... i can appreciate people wanting to be delicate about things ... i try to be ... in my own way ... and i can use any exta time to cool off ... really, my anger is useless ... ... plus the meds for anger can't be any fun ... and i'm better prepared for the depression kind of dope ... ... speaking of which, seems about time to start titrating on up ... these 10 milligrams are getting overloaded ... ... or i'm getting underloaded .... HA!
too dang lazy to carry anything, let alone something as heavy as anger ... ... really tired too ... still, need to go to social and tell fallsfall how much i love her ...
i guess i do feel a _little_ homicidal ... not much ... and no one here anyway ... oh, i could _be_ angry, but i'd rather not, really ... ... too boring
but i could be wrong about any and all of this !
what do you think?
you or anyone else reading this ... ... of course~ jim
poster:lil' jimi
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