Posted by denise1904 on May 23, 2022, at 11:41:15
Without medication I would say that I'm high functioning but inside I feel:-
Overwhelmed by a sense of morbidness and constantly thinking about death.
Concept of time changes, I don't look forward to anything so I lose sense of what day it is or even what month it is.
My joints feel sore, like they are burning
I feel empty and spaced out
Feeling lonely but not wanting to talk to anyone
Nauseas
Like everything is one big act.
My spine feels rigid
I don't want to die but it seems like the only way to stop feeling like this.
Attacks of anxiety for no reason at all
Sleeping through the night but waking up feeling like I've had no sleep at all
All of the above in spite of the fact that I have been playing tennis regularly, walking loads
I fall asleep with less than 5HTZ Delta binaural beats playing
I listen to things that make me laugh
I go to work and try to keep busy
I socialise (although wanting to do that
I do all the deep breathing stuff from my diaphragm
I've tried loads of supplements, even had magnesium injections years ago.It's just so frustrating and it annoys me when you see all these things on the internet, advocating all of the above. I do it with zero results!
When I was ok and happy (up until the age of 35) I hardly did anything to try and make myself feel better and yet I felt great. Now I work so hard at it with zero results!
I'm so grateful for medication but lately SSRIs have been making me feel incredibly drowsy that don't even feel that they work that well.
Depression and anxiety is such a frustrating illness as we are all told that we exercise, eat sensibly, do yoga, meditate, think positive thoughts, breath deeply, stay connected with others, try new things, etc etc we will be ok. I know these things help others so I don't get why they don't help me!
Denise
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