Posted by rjlockhart37 on January 20, 2022, at 2:34:17
In reply to Complex Trauma, posted by denise1904 on January 19, 2022, at 10:18:56
I had a happy childhood, i had a loving family - my mother socialized and we went to my football ganmes in middle school, all the family was there rooting for me. It was a very happy time. But when i turned 15, my mother married a man in 2001. We moved to another place in texas, and is started high school. I just rerember the pain that started, then got worse, but the real trauma i went through was being ripped off medications, dexedrine, to where i couldnt function, then my parents, i don't know what kind of evil spirit got in to them, but they got abusive, well....close to abusive, not quite. And that horror that i went through, i doenst seem very much trauma when you say it, but the fact i went through high school with pain all over me, then being ripped off medication that were helping me (even though i was abusing them) - the abuse, these medication helped me function, and when they were removed all collpased. I rerember being scared in my room, with them saying move out, or something insultive. That's what happened with me (and let's keep this secret on babble). I think remodeling yourself, or remodeling the way you function with pain, and triggers that can happen to set it off again. I think complex....i don't know what kind of trauma i went through but it was bad. Feel like i went into childhood, being 22 and being treated bad. I'm 34 now, times are moving. But that's what happened with me. It's caused anger problems, when my mom gets mean or bitter with me, i lash out and get abusive with words, and emotional abuse. It made me angry, and have a feeling to attack (keep this on babble) people who abused me. I mean, really attack, not psyhically because that would make you go to jail, but with emotional abuse. I learned it. Anyways, i try to supress the memories and those feelings of being vulnerable, with no help. I think making chapters in your life, you can organize the memoreis and learn to cope with them in the current time. That's all i can write. Hang in there
r
"There comes a time in your life where you have to choose to turn the page, write another book, or simply close it"
-Shannon L Alder
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