Posted by SLS on June 9, 2020, at 12:45:31
In reply to Re: To Ed_UK » SLS, posted by linkadge on June 8, 2020, at 17:54:48
> Yeah, the first doctor seemed to think that a fungal infection so widespread wasn't likely. He said it only usually happens in immunocompromised individuals.
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> I had a really stressful moment about 2 years back, and employment related stress since then (prospect of job loss) that psychologically I haven't been able to surmount. I've really been feeling worthless for 2 years.I wish there were something I could say that would make you feel less worthless - and I can. But I don't think you would be easily convinced. You have a warm heart, a sincere voice, and a powerful mind. You are usually right about everything.
Many people fall into the trap of defining themselves by the job they have and the size of their bank account - even the car that they drive. It's hard not to. At some point, I had to make the decision not to do that anymore. I felt my calling was to be a MD or PhD in neuroscience. I lost my ability to read, learn, and remember when I was 20, so I sold cars instead. I don't know why the Universe chose me to experience life in an altered state of consciousness that was both painful and numbing. It was not something I could control, and it wasn't my fault. Being ill wasn't a choice, but how I approached life was. I realized that the most I could possibly expect of myself at any given moment in time was to use all of what little God gave to me to work with.
Whatever works for you. One thing for sure - self-loathing won't.
Be merciful on yourself.
- ScottSome see things as they are and ask why.
I dream of things that never were and ask why not.The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is that good men do nothing.
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