Posted by undopaminergic on April 23, 2020, at 9:17:30
In reply to Re: Starting Cocaine XR next week, posted by Lamdage22 on April 23, 2020, at 8:45:58
> The thing is, there is almost something to lose in terms of mental health. You are able to connect with other people (at least on the internet), you don't have delusions or hallucinations etc. etc. This business of trying meds in general and especially addictive"meds" is risky.
>Those are things I take for granted, even after having been through a full-blown psychosis. Struggling with that psychosis, and in the process of resolving it, I have become more resistant to further episodes.
In some ways, I am risk-averse, in others I'm not. I have something to gain from being awake. If I have something to lose by it, it is a secondary consideration. Even if I see the glass as half-full I still wish to fill it up. I may do so by making use of the part of the day I would otherwise sleep.
You say I am able to connect with other people. Well, the more I am awake, the more time I have to interact.
It is not that I don't like sleeping. In fact I do, especially dreaming. But I hate the periods, often hours, of trying to fall asleep.
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