Posted by SLS on November 13, 2018, at 9:57:20
The last five months have been agonizing.
I discontinued Parnate five months ago because the improvement it produced was inadequate and well below 50%. Parnate seemed to be a dead end. I remained unemployable. Reading and memory impairments continued. I haven't read a book since 2001. I was taking Effexor 300 mg/day at the time. The last book previous to that was in 1987 while taking Parnate + desipramine. I rarely read anything at all.
I experienced a horrendous rebound depression after discontinuing Parnate. Unfortunately, my impatience caused me to taper from 80 mg/day in only two weeks. Did this damage my brain? I don't know. After waiting two weeks, I began taking Trintellix. My depression lifted a bit, but then I began to feel weird. I was in a fog and didn't feel like myself. So, I moved on to Effexor. I reacted to it in a similar fashion at only 37.5 mg/day, even though I had been okay at 300 mg/day previously. I then went to my backup plan - Nardil. A few years back, I was taking 90 mg/day. My response was only partial, though. I again started taking Nardil a few weeks ago at 7.5 mg/day. By the time I arrived at 60 mg/day, I was again hit with weird cognitive effects that left me feeling incoherent and depressed.
My doctor agreed that it made sense for me to return to Parnate and then go for TMS magnetic treatments. I am very scared. What if my brain has been affected by these drug exposures in such a way that I will be unable to tolerate Parnate? Will Parnate now produce a severe brain-fog? What then? Suicide?
I have run out of ideas.
Thanks for reading.
- ScottSome see things as they are and ask why.
I dream of things that never were and ask why not.- George Bernard Shaw
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