Posted by meltingpot on July 28, 2018, at 12:24:48
Why is it that in my 20s I took 20mg of Seroxat or a small dose of Prothiaden and it worked amazingly well.
However, I came off meds when I was 35 when the Seroxat was still working was fine for 3 years and the depression and anxiety came back only this time with strong suicidal thoughts. That time I took 20mg of Seroxat again and it just make me feel like I had a lump in my chest, totally apathetic yet anxious, unable to concentrate and still suicidal. It gets me when people advise on coming off antidepressants, they say reduce the dose slowly and wean off them. If I do that I feel ten times worse?
Why didn't ECT work for me? My psychiatrist at the time (a very good one) said it might not because it doesn't tend to work for my kind of depression. Not sure what my kind of depression is any more.
Why is it that some people have episodes of depression which they eventually come out of. Why haven't I come out of it? Why am I still taking medication after 15 years and every time I come off it I feel exactly as I did 15 years ago regardless of my circumstances?
I went to see a therapist who seems to think my childhood is at the root of my problems. I did have some bad things happen as a child but I never felt depressed or anxious then. I got upset yes but never felt like there was no way out or dispairing. The thing is I don't ever remember feeling depressed or anxious until I hit the age of 17. Also, I can't see how talking about my childhood every week is going to change anything. It would be lovely if it did but don't see how.
Denise
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