Posted by VonnegutJunky on September 1, 2015, at 0:28:20
I desperately need help.
I was on Paxil 10mg for 8 years for anxiety - May of 2014 I began my taper from 10mg and got down to 5mg by November - last Christmas everything hit and I was in hell- never had physical symptoms; they were all depression (like I have never felt before) and anxiety - so I went back on my 10mg
Except these waves of depression kept coming back -
So may of this year I doubled my dose-
The day after I doubled my dose I felt So STRANGE! I mean like nothing I have ever experienced and ways that are almost indescribable!!! Just so odd and it of it- fears that I would blank out / go crazy/ couldn't read or focus on anything-
Numb; unfocused; could not cognitively grasp the idea of time or space; all emotions were void; but I was also very anxious; everything was foggy and distant; horrible tinnitus and visual snow and I just did not feel any kind of normalI rode this out for 3 months ( I figured I had destabilized my systems by trying to come off the med it would take some time
To get stable again)About 3 months later, things had greatly improved for about 10 days- I felt like my old self - this was last week-
Then I started feeling funky again a few days ago
Not as bad as when I doubled my dose, but still not good either - but still not feeling normal -Of the things bothering my the most
Tinnitus
Visual snow
Body numbing Anxiety
Constant worry about how I feel
Burning sensation in my mouth
Sometimes double visionI have not had side effects on Paxil for the entire 8 years that I took it -
I sleep a lot - all day actually - luckily I work in the evening
Sometimes in the evening I feel much betterI do have a history of migraine with aura
I do not know if this is depression? Or a side effect of pail or continued withdrawal? I have been on 20 mg for 3.5 mos now-
If it is depression I have never felt anything like it before and I'm 42
If it is depression, will it take Paxil at 20mg longer to work than normal?Also I do have some intense life issues at the moment that would cause depression for anyone - and I happened to start going through them during my failed taper
What would any of you do if you were in my situation?
I had horrible start up effects when I doubled my dose - I don't want to give up too early if the medication will be beneficial soon - also starting a new med will give new start up effects of worsening my depression before it gets better, which I don't think I can handle at this point-And what about the days that I have where I do feel really good? What could explain those?
Any insight?
Thank you!
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