Posted by baseball55 on December 22, 2014, at 21:01:41
In reply to Re: Why does it seem like meds are the only solution » baseball55, posted by SLS on December 19, 2014, at 7:56:41
> What are the most prominent symptoms of your depression?
For a long time, I became virtually catatonic and couldn't eat or get out of bed. When I was awake, I thought obsessively about suicide. Recently, I become agitated and spend all my time planning how, when and where to kill myself.
Parnate worked for me for a while, but didn't hold me. The one thing that always worked was abilfy. If I take ability, I feel better within 24 hours. If I continue to take ability, I begin to gain weight at the rate of 2-3 lbs./week. I do not eat more and, because I feel better, I increase my exercise. I still gain weight.
This is why I've been trying to use abilify PRN. I haven't slipped into a deep, chronic, vegetative depression in a few years now, so I'm hoping that just using Abilify as needed for 3-4 days will pull me out of these deep dips I have.
I recently started lithium 900mgs. My p-doc says it can help with these intrusive, insistent suicidal thoughts. I have been better since I started it.> Perhaps combining Abilify with a stimulant like Focalin (dexmethylphenidate) could be used PRN.
I don't really need a stimulant.
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> Is bipolar disorder a possibility?
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Not at all. Have never had anything like a manic episode.
> Lamictal + Abilify might make sense if this is the condition you are dealing with.
I do take lamictal. I was on 200mg then went up to 300mg at the same time I started lithium. I don't know if lamictal helps, but I have no side effects at all from it, so I figure it doesn't hurt. My p-doc believes it has a very strong anti-suicidal affect.I guess what's strange to me is how can a drug change the nature of my thoughts? That I go from making arrangements to purchase a gun one day to planning my summer vacation after a few days on a new med.
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