Posted by iowamoo on June 1, 2014, at 8:49:41
In reply to Re: dose adjustments » iowamoo, posted by phidippus on May 25, 2014, at 11:50:17
HELP I AM REALLY UPSET!
this is my 3rd time trying this Risperdal and the other two times I felt this stuff working even underneath my fears and anxiety of taking it and whether or not I had that akinsis thing and I don't know but even with it I felt it helping me. I have been 5 days now at the full dose of .25 which is where I was before and felt so good. What is wrong now that I don't feel anything. I am feeling excused my language PISSED OFF! My mood is bad again but mainly I feel distant towards my husband whereas before I literally felt closer to him but now I don't want him to touch me and every little thing he does is SOOOOO annoying, wth! My energy is nothing like before whereas I was up and doing things and getting things done and now it is like just the same ole thing just sitting on my butt all day, and my mind is jumbled but my husband says I seem "sharper" when on before I FELT "sharper" and now I feel like I'm in a tunnel when I am talking to someone or doing something I feel tunnel focused like only that one thing is around me and nothing else and when I was driving this a.m. that was not good because I didn't seem able to look around for traffic which scared the crud out of me, oh and I stare a lot, its like my eyes get stuck, that look one gets when they stare off into space...I have been a tad more patient with my grandkids though so that is good but I just don't feel anything like I did before and it is killing me because I so was looking forward to that happy place again plus that energy I loved! what happened???? Is my body rebelling for this 3rd time because it got use to it. I sleep like a log though but don't feel any better for it. I just don't get it. I get mad at someone and stay mad at them for hours just like I use to but before on Risperdal I would get mad at something and it would just literally roll off me and I didn't give it a 2nd thought. I feel like crying because this feeling is just as bad as before.Honestly this is what I thought yesterday when I said some things to my 31 year old daughter about her 3 year old that I watch all day every day that I love and adore, and I hurt my daughters feelings so bad that I thought since I CANT keep my big mouth SHUT I would be better off dead SO NOT to hurt those that I love! OR JUST LEAVE AND NEVER COME BACK! of course I would never hurt myself in that way because I love my grandkids and my kids and I wouldn't want to hurt them but that is how AWFUL I feel when I hurt them and at times I just cant seem to stop it!
I've even gone as far to shut off my phone and turn off the computer so I wont be able to say anything, ive prayed, I've cried out to God to take this awful thing away from me NOT for my sake but so I wont hurt others. ok ok I'm done babbling.
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