Posted by Chris O on May 3, 2014, at 17:30:11
In reply to Re: To stand it » Chris O, posted by Beckett on May 3, 2014, at 1:03:42
Hi, Beckett:
Yes, I experienced anxiety as a child, teen, young adult. I'm a "lifer." My mother was/is a real mess. Simultaneously hyper controlling, paranoid, and anxious at the same time. No one ever called her on it. No one ever "rescued" me. She was all I had growing up and it twisted my brain into knots. I spend my time trying to unlearn everything I learned growing up now. It will be an ongoing process until the day I die.
I know that I have some combination of GAD, PTSD, OCD, social phobia, depression, and paranoia. But it is all very physical feeling to me, like a box around my being. (I would call that box my mother's essence, if I had to name it.) When an antidepressant works and those physical symptoms are gone, all of my mental masturbation disappears as well. I'm pretty certain if an antidepressant or combination worked well for me, I would be more highly functioning than some of my "normal" peers. It's quite frustrating, really. The humiliation is unending. But I'm still here, and continue to hold out hope for better days ahead.
Chris
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