Posted by poser938 on April 25, 2014, at 19:20:34
In reply to Re: ...i need to have ECT done » poser938, posted by europerep on April 25, 2014, at 16:25:37
What my problem is, is that psychiatric meds were never meant for me. I started my first round of medications in 2005. At first they had a dramatic beneficial effect on my mood. Especially adderall.
But before long, it all went down hill. I believe they had the same basic effect as when someone takes hormones, such as testosterone, and after using it chronically, the body decreases
or stops producing its own testosterone. My brain/emotions basically feel shut down. And there have been many meds I've tried that I just do not respond to. Adderall, SSRI's, SNRI's, tricyclics, the effects of alcohol on my mood are basically nonexistent. It just makes me feel awkward. I tried marijuana for the 1st time 2 weeks ago, and all I got was dry mouth. Ketamine only made me dizzy when I tried it.I'm just not responding to anything. The only success I had was about 4 years ago with Cyproheptadine. I believe its 5ht2c antagonism just kinda took the brakes off dopamine release, and I slowly but surely got more able to feel pleasure, joy, interests and just everything good about life again. But each dose would stop working after just like 3 days. And then I'd have to raise the dose until I got to a sky high dose and had to stop taking it. Since then I've slowly sunk back to my pre-cyproheptafine state.
I've considered going far out in left field and asking my psychiatrist if I could try the 5ht2c agonist Belviq (weight loss med) to see if a 5ht2c agonist would reverse my tolerance to Cyproheptadine, and hopefully make Cyproheptadine work once again... though I've tried a few SSRI'S and it seems they would have accomplished this if my idea to work.
Anyway, idk of all this sounds kinda odd. But I believe the reason for me reacting so horribly to psychiatric meds is the Encephalitis I had in 2001 that resulted in a coma.
Before I got into the antidepressant game, my mood problems were a world different from what they became a few months into starting meds. I responded well to talk therapy in the beginning as well. But once these meds had their way with me, i stopped responding to talk therapy. I stopped responding to pretty much anything good in life. These meds have ruined me. A few months after starting them, I became my emotional state became nearly unrecognizable to my normal self.
Yup.
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