Posted by stargazer2 on December 22, 2013, at 20:06:44
In reply to Re: addicted to depression - possible? (nm), posted by stargazer2 on December 22, 2013, at 19:58:09
I never feel accepting of my depression. It always feels bad and defective and makes me feel out of touch with others and the world. I have never thought this is a good thing, only how I have lost out of normalcy and how much of my life I have lost out on. I teeter on the verge of suicidality constantly lately. I am scared to dead of what might be called the future. I can't look ahead and barely can tolerate today.
There is nothing remotely acceptable about the state of mind I know as depression but perhaps it is not depression but something far worse that they are not even aware of that i keeping me in this abyssmal state of mind. Ordinary depression is nothing like the world I have lived in for most of my life. Maybe that is the difference between one's own depression and the one I know. You cannot compare one's reality to another's with any degree of accuracy and similarity.
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