Posted by brynb on December 9, 2013, at 11:54:25
Hi All-
I'm currently on Lexapro 20 mg, Tramadol 100 mg and Ativan 6 mg. I'm unofficially MDD or Bipolar 2--for all my years of taking meds (almost 20) and seeing docs, I haven't a concrete diagnosis.
I tapered off of Seroquel (100 mg) almost 2 months ago, and I've had a month of ups and downs. Prior to that I was doing ok, but I felt too sluggish during the day on it and ended up on Vyvanse to counteract my lethargy. I still take Vyvanse at times when I'm really tired or have a lot to do. I always feel better (or just "clearer" on less meds) and try to keep my regimen as streamlined as possible.
Other than meds, I did 2 months of Ketamine treatment this year as well as TMS. I had a good run from July-end of Sept/beginning of Oct.
The thing is, this month has been a roller coaster. One week I'm alright, even "normal," then I crash for a few days and I'm so depressed and anxious I can't leave my bed. I just spent the past 4 days in bed and was finally able to get up and shower and get some things done. I took Seroquel last night to sleep and Vyvance to wake up. But! I don't like having to use meds to counteract other meds. And, I still feel pretty awful.
One more thing: a friend of mine uses oxycodone for his back, and has given me a few here and there. I seem to have a high tolerance for pain meds; I don't get euphoric, but they make me feel "happy" and ok. Clearly, pain meds are a slippery slope, but they work. Does anyone here take pain meds (other than Tramadol or Suboxone) for their depression?
I don't see a therapist as I never found one who was useful or who I liked in the past.
What's with the rapid mood cycling this month? I don't know what I'm really asking for, I guess maybe insight or feedback.
Hope you're all faring well. Holidays can be dreadful!
-b
Live in the sunshine, swim the sea, drink the wild air. - Ralph Waldo Emerson
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