Posted by b2chica on August 15, 2013, at 16:42:52
update on recent med trials.
ok. some more failed attempts to notch in my bed post
while my anxiety grew to an unbelievable level right before i lost my job, i felt the anxiety also bringing about my depression as well. (of course adding to that my fear, frustration of no job)
and about one month or so before i left work my brand of generic Adderall was no longer to be found. i searched and searched. i started on the sandoz brand and like all the others, got BAD headaches, nasty nausea and of course did only little for energy (am mostly) and VERY little for attention, brain fog and Lots of anxiety.ANYWAY, i decided to ask for dexedrine.
July 11, started dexedrine ER 15mg (Barr mfg). slept most of the dayliterally only up for about 6 hours off and on.
July 13, started taking 45mg dex in am. still nothing, mood terribly down, started with intrusive visuals of death.
July 16, got rx for Vyvanse 50mg. mood got little better but still NO energy. sleeping most of the day.
July 18, got rx for Vyvanse 70mg. first couple days thought was getting little better, could get out of bed but not much energy. Gradually depression came, suicidal thoughts, visions, wrote letters.
July 26th my depressive thoughts/visuals become too much. called pdoc. vyvanse making things worse. irritability, inward anger, sadness, intrusive thoughts/visualsetc.
July 30 met with nurse practitioner, got rx for Desoxyn, took one right away at 2:00. next day felt just slightly better but not much. Nurse Prac told me i could go up to 15mg. so
Aug 1 went to 10. little shaky but better.
Aug 2-6 went to 15, seemed to have still no energy and feeling down
Aug 7 had job interview, so switched back to Sandoz adder all for temp fix. i faked pretty good.
Aug 8 took sandoz again since i felt better yesterday but after afternoon dose i got REALLY bad headache and nausea.
Aug 10 upped pristiq to 150. seems to have helped mood. but by afternoon (2;00 or so) my mood is down and very tired, yet nervous.
after contacting CorePharma company, finding out they are NOT backordered anywhere, they are NOT (allegedly) discontinuing their drug. a liaison tried to help me but found NOONE in my state that got their drug. told me to use Express Scripts (online).
after trying to access their site, i found out they are basically an insurance company.ugh.
Then after i got new job i went to benefits office and talked with health ins. person about accessing this medication. the only solution she had was to try ordering from out of state pharmacy and have them mail me medication! UGH.
called BCBS and they said my doctor could order it and charge it as an 'in office administration of med'. but the nurse practitioner said she wasn't able to order the CorePharma from her online purchasing???OK there IS an upside to all thistemporarily anyway.
There were 2 little mom & pop pharmacies in my town that i wasn't aware of (friend told me to try there). I called the one closer to my home.
he said he could (allegedly) order it, but wasn't for sure he would get it, but to call the next day to see.i was SO hopeful i could barely breathe.
i called the next morning at 9:01 after they opened.They acted like it was no big dealYES they had my CorePharma Adderall!
But as i have no insurance right now it came to $109.00
i had to put it on my credit card. but i dont care...inorder to go through some intensive training next week...i needed it. not to mention i cant handle the nausea and headaches anymore.
i could barely stay in my seat at my new job. could Hardly think about anything elsei KNOW i sound like some kind of drug addict. But they have NO idea what i'd just went through NOT having it!!
Right after work i went there to pick it up. They handed me the bottle and i opened it up to check. There were the round pink little beauties.
i just stood there for a minute. it must have seemed weird, he asked me gently if there was anything wrong or if he could help me with anything else.
I told him with tears in my eyes, that he had NO idea what i went through this last month. that No one in town could get this brand. that i went on three other medications to try, suffering horrible side effects. That I'm on this not just for attention but for mood also, and Nothing else work like this brand. I asked him if it was a fluke that he had this brand or could he get it again? he gently said "hold on a minute" went to the computer behind the counter and looked up the medication. he looked at me and said "No, its right here. I'll go ahead and place another order now so its here".
i just stared at him and said as Gratefully as i could."Thank You".
and left with med in hand.Now i wanted wait till the weekend, as i have to get off pristq 150 go back down to 100mg and then switch from sandoz to my wonderful corepharma's.
So until my next med trial..
b2c.
"What is madness, but nobility of soul at odds with circumstance.
The day is on Fire, and i know the purity of pure despair."
Theodore Roethke
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