Posted by rjlockhart37 on February 25, 2013, at 23:53:05
well i finally got out of this horrible doom gloom, maroon tomb like.....i don't know what causes this but i get in such bad moods that it just compeltly wipes out the quality of life....im on heavy duty medications, and of course my body wants to make sure its gonna screw up something, and the meds have no effect. I went to the doctor and we didnt move around because i know any other medication i take, my body will create a resistance and tolerance. I hate my body...it is the biggest failure ever to be recorded in history. But fainlly i've came out of this frozen state of being lifeless....self loathing....ughhh im so mad hook up electric shocks and shock my brain 10times at high voltage.
See my medicine does not work, the only effect i get at times is zyprexa when its under my tongue and have to taste the nastyness of it...the nuvigil, the prozac..the resistance of something canceling it out, my body won't let things in my body that alter it....maybe its some protection mechanism it created during a tramatic time. But it is so complicated now because simplist things that are used to treat mood disorder, now its a complicated issue.
Ugh....im so mad, and you know its not even getting mad over, but everything i've tried, trying to get a stable job, my mind is the sh*tt**st model ever created. I hate it. And no one even understand my view and critizes me.
anyways....had to vent...
r
not a scholar but understand distress
Med:
Prozac 60mg
Lamictal 200mg
Zyprexa 20mg
Nuvigil 250mg
encourage you to avoid false beliefs
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