Posted by Lamdage22 on February 13, 2013, at 14:03:51
it seems like i truly am either Schizophrenic or Schizo-Affective.
I benefit from Zyprexa. Not Seroquel, not Abilify and not Risperdal. Without it im having violent thoughts, what doctors called "psychotic motivated fears".. and people around me seem "unreal". The hateful thoughts are directed either at myself or non specified others. Somehow hatred gets a grip of me without zyprexa. Im not terribly happy looking at taking meds for the rest of my life.
Also i am asking myself if theres a way to escape the hatred... and to recover from schizophrenia? I mean what is the difference anyway? Schizoaffective disorder or Schizophrenia with some depression?
Im currently taking 7.5 at night. I wanna ask about spreading it out throughout the day. Abilify made me jumpy, so i just dropped it.
Idk what to say. Feel like im dying either from Zyprexa or my illness. No big healing and happy depression free life.
I have gotten pretty much every diagnosis in the book.
Bipolar, mixed and mostly (very) depressed. Severe PTSD
Inclination toward "delusions" of persecutions mostly by my father.
Parnate 20, T3 60, Agomelatine 25, Geodon 20, Melperone 50