Posted by rjlockhart37 on February 1, 2013, at 19:54:34
its been a while since i've had a episode of paranoia....its usally when im under stimulant influence....but still for a while....i had horrible feelings people where planning to send me to prison, people parked in frount of the house and then follow me when i left...it was vary real when it was happening....but the only thing is detachment from the world, integrated only in the minds reality. I checked myself into JPS in 2010....i was thinking i was losing my mind...but really i should of went to a church with strong faith based people to pray. When i got into the hospital, i still had a feeling the doctors where being called by agents telling them what to do....telling them my entire observation. I'm so glad im not afraid people are out to get me....but its funny the people who told me "where not out to get you" my old therpist...he called my doctor and had contact and then told me to be discharged, and taken off my dexedrine....they where out to get me...he frountly said that he would refer me to a psych hospital...that kinda of stuff....thinking people are talking behind my back and plotting a attack. There's a term called Community Harassment....google it...i thought for a fact that was what was happening when i was locked in my house, and anytime i went out i would get followed and harassed. Like i said, at the time it was as real as the eye could see....
but the next doctor i went to....put me on geodon and zypexa at high doses....it totally made me quiet, all the paranoia went away but i lost paots of my personality.
I'm glad im free, don't have to worry. But still i have other problems with depression and pray to God....and i do that wrong too...prayers have not been awnsered and really hope it will take 40years like it didnt to the israelites in the wilderness.....ugh, if it is...open the southern comfort wiskey...
not a scholar but understand distress
encourage you to avoid false beliefs