Posted by Lou Pilder on January 24, 2013, at 22:10:31
In reply to Lou's response-gmblerzrewhyn » cellular, posted by Lou Pilder on January 24, 2013, at 19:07:12
> > > I'm back and I feel like I'm whining but I really don't feel that I have any other support or outlet.
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> > > My depression and anxiety is so bad I can hardly move from bed. I can't watch t.v. I feel totally, utterly hopeless and I have little fight left in me.
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> > > Because things have been so bad (coming off my recent psych ER stint and being sick & hospitalized prior to that), my mom surprised me w/ a long spa weekend in Miami. It was so sweet and caring of her but I'm still moping and can't control my emotions (weeping constantly, having outbursts, trying to validate my emotions). We're supposed to leave tomorrow (it's also extremely cold and depressing in NY right now), but she's already sick of my whining and I don't want to ruin things. My family is so hurt & sick over my suffering, and it only makes me feel worse.
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> > > All I'm on is Lexapro 10 mg & trazadone for sleep. My mom is holding my Xanax. All of these Rx's are a hybrid of a botched withdrawal attempt. Benzos stopped working. Nothing even slightly eases the pain. Things like Seroquel and Zyprexa don't touch what I'm feeling. Tramadol doesn't work. As a last resort, I just got Fioricet w/ codeine from my reg doc (my pdoc just dumped me and I'm not seeing a new one until next week). Pain pills are the only meds that come close to easing things up. Wise? Doubtful, but I'm hoping it'll get me by...I see no harm in using them as a bandaid.
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> > > I'm just looking to vent. I feel like I'm losing my mind completely. I'm desperate and don't know what to do anymore.
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> > > Thanks,
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> > Hello Brynb,
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> > We already met today on the thread about the possible role of inflammation in depression.
> > I was just perusing this site when I noticed this post of yours and I can relate to the pain you're going through, since I've been there too.
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> > As for a possible treatment, have you tried other antidepressants than escitalopram (Lexapro) and trazodone?
> > From what I gathered during prior years of research, both tend to have a low success profile for relieving depression.
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> > I had to go through the hell of eight years testing all kinds of SSRIs, tetracyclics and antipsychotics until I finally got lucky with sertraline (brand name Zoloft) and trimipramine. The sertraline alone made be too irritable, but instinctively I felt during the first days of its administration that this SSRI would be working and it has literally saved my life, since the suicidal thoughts and outbursts of anger vanished.
> > After a few weeks of trial, I asked my pdoc about what he could prescribe to counteract the irritability and trouble sleeping and yet again, he picked a winner, namely trimipramine which is a sedating tricyclic.
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> > My experience and probably that of the vast majority of others dealing with this illness is that it may take a lot of patience and many years -- in my case about eight years -- until you get lucky and get the med(s) that do their job.
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> > I hope it won't take that long for you to find the right med(s), but you need patience (and a patient pdoc!) and perseverance to undergo the process of trial and error. But no matter how long it takes, I believe you will finally find the med or combination of meds that will alleviate your depression.
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> > Hang on in there, and sooner or later you'll hit the jackpocket, so to speak.
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> > cellular
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> > Friends,
> It is written here,[...I had to go through the hell of 8 years testing..SSRIs...trial and error...sooner or later you'll hit the jackpot...].
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> Friends,
The poster wites that sooner or later you will hit the jackpot.
Well, what about the people that are killed by the drugs before they hit the jackpot? And what about the people that get tardive dyskinesia before they hit the jackpot? And what about the people that kill themselves before they hit the jackpot? And what about the innocent children that are murdered by those taking mind-altering drugs before the taker of the drugs hits the jackpot? And what is the jackpot? Can you readers look at the posters here and see where their lives are now from the drugs? Is that a jackpot? A jackpot of what?
My friends, I am prevented from posting here what could lead you to more than a jackpot. It could lead you to a whole new life, and you could sing a new song. Gone could be the dark clouds and the cold winds. And there would be the Sun shinning healing rays bringing your life back. And you could return to the green fields that you used to know.
Lou
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