Posted by alchemy on January 6, 2013, at 0:46:53
Depression with anxiety can be a strange mix. There are times when I'm more on the depressed side and do not want to be around anyone. Lately I am more on the anxiety side, where I freak out when alone. I went to lunch with my mom to get out of the house. She annoyed me and I even had plans to go to dinner with a friend. Yet I felt "freaked out" that my mom was leaving. I don't have any reasons to have abandonment issues. I usually need some alone time. But I think when my anxiety is heightened, it shifts to being fearful of it. I've noticed it's worse if I forget to take my xanax.
Along with this anxious feeling of needing to do something or not be alone come a frozen feeling. I need to do something, but I feel stuck.
Maybe part of this lonely anxiety is because I also not feeling like doing anything (the depression piece). I wish I could at least be ok watching tv, a video game or something.
I also think that my thinking gets weirder with more anxiety. It goes off on tangents, especially existentialism.
And I wonder how social anxiety fits relates to my "alone anxiety". I guess anxiety can take on many forms.