Posted by rjlockhart37 on December 9, 2012, at 21:28:25
In reply to Re: superfical charm, posted by novelagent on December 9, 2012, at 19:14:33
yea....thanks, the main thing I know with me with stimulants besides Nuvigil is that its like eating too much....let me explain, when I eat I always feel that satifaction and compluse to move to other more good delicious food, moving to unhealthy ones like ding dongs and crack jacks...but that's exactly how I know how I think of stimulants, the dopamine release is similar yet food doesnt directly stimulate dopamine. That's learned/predicted how my thoughts would be if I ever was put on a stimulant, which I don't think would be the best right now...even though my friends pop adderall and ritilin when they want, even at night... I've had to comply with my doctor, do what she says, never get her thinking I know more than she does, which in sometimes that's difficult:)lol
But yea...I am habit behavior, but i'm finally learning what it will do, predicting reward systems. getting ahold of self control is something I still am on the road too...
the asperger thing....in 2008 i went to a doctor, i had too...for a court case, I wasnt psychotic, but I sat with him, he observed how I moved, what I did with my hands, suprised he didnt try to read my mind..lol but after it couple days later I got the report, my dad got it because he's the one that was handling the case....and then the whole family was informed I had ASPG...but thinking I have autism some people will view me as borterline retarted, and treat me like im a baby who can't think right. I hate being labeled that, i would rather go with ADHD, or even schizophenia...not autism, there's nothing wrong with it...i just don't want people to say : now rj, how are you feeling at this moment? lets give you a pat on the back because you did the dishes correctly...its like they look down at me for having lower intelligence...you know stuff like taht...it bothers me. Then they after I leave or go in the other room they have insulting comments under their breathe. Despreatly trying to recoop my mind to get away from that.
Thanks NVA...but like I said when I go to bed at night all that social mask falls off, and I think mournful thoughts of not going to prom or finishing college and having good friends that have great times with eachother. The social impairment is obvious with me, and ill have to deal with it later, burden to even think about. But look on the bright side, everyones unique.
r
not a scholar but understand distress
Med:
Prozac 60mg
Lamictal 200mg
Zyprexa 20mg
Nuvigil 250mg
encourage you to avoid false beliefs
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