Posted by Willful on October 14, 2012, at 12:17:37
In reply to Re: Last time I Ask for Med Advise As Know Some Get Fr » phillipa, posted by SLS on October 14, 2012, at 2:11:19
I'm sorry about your situation, too, Phillipa, but maybe you should gird yourself and try Duke.
You're depressed and hopeless and imagining that having taste and smell would somehow make you feel better. But my guess is that is wouldn't. It would be great-- of course-- but it wouldn't change your hopelessness, your sense that no one cares, that you can't find understanding or help anywhere.
You could wonder why you don't try this idea about Duke. You said have you missed something, and I think Twinleaf's suggestion is an extremely good one. Go to Duke, meet with them and see what they have to offer, including meetings at intervals to review and monitor and discuss any changes they've been able to offer-- which you really really need to TRY-- and also see if they can refer you to a therapist in your area.
I agree with Scott that a lot of your suffering comes from long-standing and deeply rooted psychological problems that would only be alleviated by some time of working on them with someone. Even if it's more expensive than you like, if it would make you feel that your life is worth living, isn't it worth the money?
I think that you really have a hard time investing yourself in feeling better. I'm not sure why; I think those of us who are depressed have a tendency to make ourselves suffer. I say this because it that weren't true, there would be no hope of alleviating it. If the suffering is biological, then only drugs will help. But in your case, that may not be true. It seems that you do keep yourselves in this hopeless position-- whether it's to punish yourself or because you're afraid of change, or for whatever reason. And only if you begin to make some positive change-- with help--- will it change.
You could for example try to think about the good things in your life-- the blue sky, the good weather, a drive in the mountains, even a few minutes when riding your bike gave you a good feeling. I try to do this, and I know it works, even if only when you're writing it down. You can try meditating. I find this immensely helpful and you can do it at home. And there are no negative side effects. There are lots of things-- but I wonder if you can begin to have faith in them without some psychological counseling. And dont' say there's no one in your area. That cant' be true. You can find someone who can help-- if you don't give up and say things like-- well if only I could taste chips-- as if that's the best you can hope for.
You want help-- I totally believe that. But when it's offered , you don't reach out to grasp it. I think you need to figure out why you reject all efforts to help-- why no one can help you. I know I've also suffered from this problem. Others can't help if you don't let them. So you have to just go through the motions-- do some things, even if you don't believe in them-- and see if Duke, or someone in your area, or someone you have to travel to see, can make a difference. It is never too late.
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